A Wee Bit of SeSangst

[solafiamma]

SeSa. Yes. I am at that stage in the writing process where I can't even compose a grocery list. That would be about half an inch from full blown panic. I avoided the whole thing yesterday by watching Fellowship of the Ring and Two Towers, eating wildly unhealthy things which shall not be named and pretending that if I wait long enough the house will clean itself. This morning, I'm still bereft of ideas, my stomach feels ever so slightly queasy, and I'm pretty sure the house looks precisely as chaotic as it did last night.

In other neurotic news, around the time that SeSa sign ups began, I'd been engaged in a bit of a friending binge. When the assignments were sent out, though, it occurred to me that if I friended someone else, she'd probably think I was her secret santa. And yes, I know, who gives a rip, but I do, though. I do give a rip, and so I was going to just go ahead and friend everybody on the "watched by" list on the sesa_discuss info page, but nonchop very firmly told me not to be such an ass (in a much nicer way, of course), and so I refrained. Just barely.

I may still indulge in a more restrained friending frenzy, though, because when the urge is there, it's there, and there's just no use fighting it. So, if I friend you and you're wondering if I'm you're secret santa, no, I'm not. Or maybe I am. But most probably, not.

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/_bettina_/]

I'm sure you're going to do fine with your SeSa story!

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

Thank you. These pre-writing jitters are pretty much the norm for me, but they catch me off guard every time.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_bettina_/]

Oh, I know the feeling, but I've got my pre-writing jitters all the way through writing the story and even afterwards *g*.

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

Hee! I tend to relax a bit once I start, but before that happens I have to go through a billion and one permutations of "I suck! I suck! I'm all written out! There are no more stories left in me to write!"

[nonchop.livejournal.com]

You will be FINE!

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

I will. I know I will. Oh, I really hope I will.

[pierson.livejournal.com]

Heh. I have NO idea, either. I'm not quite to the panicking stage yet, but I think I'm creeping up on the bad-for-you foods stage, and definitely in the I'll-watch-anything-rather-than-think-about-it phase.

However, in chatting with friends, seeing what pairings they received, I'm quite sure that I won't feel sorry for myself, because, oi, what some of them have to work with. My consolation is that I don't have gsf. :-)

I'm tossing around ideas, and I talked to mickeym for ages this afternoon, trying to brainstorm stuff, but I'm not sure anything sounds good to me. I'd do a bit of a stalkery thing that's been percolating in my head, but it's not really a happy ending sort of thing, and for SeSa, that seems *necessary,* y'know? Or maybe that's just me.

So, yes, I feel your pain. Now, where's the damn chocolate? ;-)

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

My pairing wasn't as grisly as it could have been. In fact, loads of people would be delighted with it. It's just, it's not a pairing I tend to *see*. Working on that . . .

And yes, thank *god* I didn't get GSF. There would have been unidentified feet and hands and dicks flying around all over the place. Sheesh. I have enough trouble with just the two of them on the bed. Or chair. Or chaise longue. Or whatever.

You'll probably be drummed out of fandom if you throw in an unhappy ending. Unless it's specifically been requested. Unless you're writing for me, in which case, bring it on! Because I can take it, dude.

And I don't know where the chocolate is, but it sure as heck isan't at my house. (I don't count chocolate as a wildly unhealthy food, by the way. It has anti-oxidants! It's good for you!)

[turps33.livejournal.com]

So you're not my Secret Santa? Damn and here I was thinking I'd cracked the code ;)

Hi by the way :)

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

The code is unbreakable! I'm just ever so tricksy. But, dude, that banner of Chris pictures along the top of your lj should be enough to make any sane person friend you. Chris!!!

And hi!

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Chris! I love doing that :D

Though it has to be said that some people seem to think the banner attracts insane people. I like to think it weeds away the people who won't understand. Chris!!!