will someone please pass me a paper bag?

[solafiamma]

A terrible, horrible, no good, very bad thing has happened. It turns out that the sesa idea I had is not going to work, which would have been fine, because I am ever so clever and had not one but two (!!) extra ideas up my sleeve just in case, only it turns out that I am way less clever than I give myself credit for, because neither of these ideas is going to work either, and now I am in a blind state of panic and all I can come up with are story ideas that have already been written a bazillion and sixty-four times already, and man oh man, I'm so freaked out I'm hyperventilating and I can't even remember how to end a sentence.

It's okay. I know I can do this. I just need to remember how to breathe again.

Oh, fuckety fuck.

Comments

[lilysaid.livejournal.com]

I am in the exact same position. I just scrapped my current story about thirty minutes ago.

PANIC!!!

But you can do it. We will do it, because nobody craps out on SeSa and everybody is going to get great stories!

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

I will die before I crap out! Well, hopefully not literally, but, yes. We will do this. And our stories will rock!

I'm so sorry to hear that you're in the same boat. but I feel a lot less lonely.

[lilysaid.livejournal.com]

Oh, you're not alone at all. The poll I did today? It was viewable to none for a reason. about 75% of the people who took it are in a state of non-word-having panic. :)

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

Let's just hope we don't all lean to the left at the same time . . .

[nonchop.livejournal.com]

It's going to be okay, hon. Email me? And come online when you can.

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

I'll come online in a couple of minutes, but I'll only stay for about five. Get ready to slap me. Hard.

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

Aack!!! AIM won't let me sign on -- it says the AIM service can't be reached. wtf?!

[nonchop.livejournal.com]

Try again? I also have Yahoo Messager. I'm 'nonchopchica' over there.

[callsigns.livejournal.com]

Breathe. It will be okay!! nonchop will help you through it!! She totally fixed my story for me. She is the SeSa savior!

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

The SeSa saviour! I'll yank the bag off my head and go hit her up on AIM. Nothing can save my story, but maybe she'll whap me with a bunny.

Thanks for the pep talk!

[kaneko.livejournal.com]

Awwwww. *petpetpetpetpet*.

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

Yes, please, pet me some more, because I'm a sad, sad noseless thing.

[kaneko.livejournal.com]

If it makes you feel any better, my own catch-cry for sesa this year has been doom. dooooooom.

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

That does not make me feel better at all. It makes me want to pet you back, though. *petpetpetpet*

[geneli4.livejournal.com]

oh, no! *hugs* if there's anything i can do...

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

The sympathy is good. Thank you! I think nonchop may have just talked me down and into another story idea.

[geneli4.livejournal.com]

yay! nonchop rocks!

[tallories.livejournal.com]

Hang in there - you'll get it! You're in very good company right now, LOL. ;)

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

Yes, it would seem I am. It's reassuring in a bizarre kind of way. Thanks for the encouragement!

[xoverau.livejournal.com]

I saw later on that you solved this problem, but--belated eeeeep. That's what happened to me six days before it was due last year, and it's the main reason I didn't sign up this year. I just can't write the "boy meets boy. boy has pointless staged argument with boy. boy makes up with boy. the end" story. There has to be some weird freakiness.

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

Obviously I wasn't reading all the angsty posts flying around this time last year very carefully. I saw all "stress, stress, angsty-bangsty, whap me in the head with a shovel right now" posts, and what I took away was, "oh, hey, too bad you couldn't join the party because this FUN!!!" Apparently I'm a functional illiterate. Who knew?

But, hey. Thanks for the plot idea. That could definitely come in handy. :)

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

I may possibly have left out a "these" and an "is" in that reply. You didn't notice, though, right?

[xoverau.livejournal.com]

Nooooo! That one was copyright ME!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_bettina_/]

*hugs* SeSa panic is the worst, but eventually it will work out :-).

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* Or, more accurately, *clings to you like a limpet* You're right, it will work out! I can do this, I can, I can.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_bettina_/]

You can do it! *cheers you on*

And now I go back to my own little SeSa panic attack ;-).

[pierson.livejournal.com]

I have faith in you. You'll pull it together, and come up with something wonderful. For inspiration, you get my beautiful Chris. :-)

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your faith. I will pull it together! It might not result in something wonderful, but it will result in a story. And, eeeee! Your beautiful Chris is totally inspirational. I offer my beautiful Chris in gratitude.

[i-naiad.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel. I remember panicking last year, but it was nothing compared to this year. Eep.

*hugs* and if you need anything (handholding, whatever) send me an email.

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

What is it with sesa this year? The planets are aligned against us!

*hugs you back* I may be emailing you (although I'll try to keep the panic to a sedate hum; these things can be contagious). Is the @livejournal address the one to use?

[i-naiad.livejournal.com]

Yep. That's the one to use. Feel free to send anything across - all procrastination is feeling good right now. :)

[turps33.livejournal.com]

nonchop is helping me fix my story too, she's the SeSa goddess!

As for you, I'm sure you can pull this off.

[sola-fiamma.livejournal.com]

Yes, she talked me down from ledge yesterday. I was in such a state.

I will pull it off. There's no way I'm bailing on this. I'll be the little engine that could and the brave little toaster all rolled into one hodge podge of determination.